My musing on mental health, writing, and life
Sweet Halloween Dreams by begemott on Deviant Art This image is one of my favorites. The sight of the brave bear standing against an overwhelming opponent, two impossibilities faced off in conflict. This image eventually inspired me to create teddy bears fighting nightmares. Inspiration, though, can be a fine line, searching for that balance between... Continue Reading →
My medications have, rather suddenly, stopped being effective. In the last month I have had multiple crippling anxiety attacks the like of which have been unknown to me for longer than I can recall. Last week I began a depressive state that almost caused me to leave work early. What really drove it home, though,... Continue Reading →
Laticia and Sonny were in the path of the charging boogeymen. Laticia took down two, but left herself open to the talons of a third. The creature’s swing would have done worse than ripping away one of her eyes had Sonny not shoved her away. His gesture then left himself open to the strike that... Continue Reading →
I didn't apply for the open position at work. I alarmed a number of people with a massive anxiety meltdown last week. I think my meds are failing or I am slipping into stronger depressed and anxious episodes. Suicide ideation has been re-visiting me lately. I dislike the fact that a gun has been left... Continue Reading →
Marley’s fur stood up and a shiver went down her body. It was so slight that no one noticed but Barnabus and Montrose. The former from holding her hand and the latter because he was watching them carefully. A sound caused all six bears to focus on the clearing ahead of them. It was the... Continue Reading →
She looked him up and down, noting the tatters of his clothing. His main sword, the Rook, was gripped loosely. His face was tight and uncertain. There was also a dignified bear standing just behind him. Barnabus looked from face to face, acknowledging each in turn. Ambrose was chilly, Sonny’s nostrils flared, and Latricia, loyal... Continue Reading →
Lost in thought, it was some time before any of the bears spoke. It was Sonny who finally broke the silence. “I should not have said that I had fought a bogey,” he said softly. “This is far worse than I could have imagined.” He went silent again and Latricia took his hand. Eventually Marley... Continue Reading →
“He has his drawbacks, but there is good in him,” she said, almost to herself. The four bears continued quietly, making as little noise as possible. After some time, Marley skipped to a stop. Her muzzle opened, but only a croaking sound emerged. Ahead of them the trees appeared to be draped in wool, all... Continue Reading →
Ambrose was evidently alarmed by their reactions. “This is why we exist,” he said gently. “We fight their nightmares to bring some measure of succor. You need to hold to that duty.” Marley left Ambrose to reinforce the younger bear’s morale. She continued to study the place. Placing her hand on a tree sent images... Continue Reading →
