My medications have, rather suddenly, stopped being effective. In the last month I have had multiple crippling anxiety attacks the like of which have been unknown to me for longer than I can recall. Last week I began a depressive state that almost caused me to leave work early. What really drove it home, though, is today I have been laughing at the ridiculous jokes in Avengers Endgame. I have rarely laughed in the last year from being so heavily medicated. What is strange about that? Knowing that my emotions are returning worries me about what state I could be at any given time.
My emotional state has always been volatile, but often I kept the worst hidden away. I am afraid of returning to that state, but curious to feel highs and lows again. I moved up my next psych visit to this week so I could discuss the situation with the doctor.
Thanks for stopping by, as always, and I hope to see you soon. Be kind to yourself.